Just because I don't have any of that stuff, doesn't mean I'm not important.
I may not be by the World's standards, but I love myself and I know Heavenly Father loves me so what else matters? Nothing. Obviously. Of course there are days where I feel like a worthless nobody, but they never last. As soon as I start thinking that way, someone is sent to me to lift me back up, and set me on my feet again. It's taken 16 years, but here I am completely happy with myself. This doesn't mean that I'm perfect, or that I don't need to improve on anything, because I always will. I'm constantly watching what I say and filtering my thoughts. I'm notorious for saying things without thinking them through and often hurting people's feelings. This obviously is so far from being ok, and for months I've been trying so hard to think of the effects of my actions and words. I've gone through pages and pages of paper writing 'Love Letters' to all my friends and doing my best to share my love for them. Each morning when I sleepily rise from my bed and fall onto my knees (or sometimes just staying under the warm blankets...) I pray for everyone that I know. Sometimes it's no more than, "Please bless all my friends with whatever they need today, and everyone else who is struggling. Help them to turn to Thee." It gets more general the less awake I am. Other days it's every one of my friends, by name. I pray for their boy troubles, that their braces won't hurt them today, that they can do well on a math test, or that they can simply be happy. Then I always finish my prayer by asking to be led to the people that need me that day and the courage to do what I need to to touch them. It works! Sometimes I do or say things without knowing why but it pays off. Follow the Spirit. As I turn myself over to the Lord I can feel my love for others and myself grow. I LOVE myself!
I love having the power to look in the mirror and feel good about what I see. I have sparkly green eyes. I have hair the color of sunshine that hairstylists rave about. My dance moves are astounding. I can shuffle cards and do the bridge. I can pull a joke out of nowhere. Never have I ever (or plan to) hit anything with my car. I make friends easily. My handwriting is exciting! I am dang smart. My sweet little hands are always so cold that I can't feel them. I put good food into my body. Not only do I know good manners, but I use them! I love to learn. (In fact, if you ever want to know everything about drinking fountains, that was my most recent topic that I am now an expert on.) I know how to tie a bowtie and solve a Rubiks Cube. I am a superb cook. I listen to good music. If I needed to, I could plan a wedding right this second. I mean, I've already done mine... My poems rival Dr. Seuss. I am strong enough to overcome my trials. I don't complain about doing the dishes. I tell my family I love them 495703+ a day. Not only do I dress modestly, but I care about and put effort into the way I look. I read my scriptures every day. I love my laugh and reading books. I have big dreams. I work hard. I get along well with my friends families, and adults in general. I am a Daughter of God. I'm very blessed and very happy.
Being confident in yourself is not bragging. This list of awesome things about me? Also not bragging. I don't feel bad that I have good qualities that I'm proud of. It's taken me a while to get here and I'm not about to apologize for it. So. The next time you look in the mirror, get over yourself and all the things you don't like and look at you! Say this. "Dang! I look so fine today! If I like myself, others will like me too. I have the power to control the way I think and I won't let anyone take that away from me!" You're powerful! You are important! Don't worry about how you look in that picture. Don't worry about whether or not everyone likes you. They don't! Let's all just quit being mean to each other and have a party it up instead! If today was the worst day of your life, dance it off and remember there's always tomorrow.
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